I have not been putting as much into my education as I should this term. I'm sitting in Biochemistry right now. I am paying no attention at all to the bond angles of a beta-pleated sheet of protein, nor do I intend to learn what the hell is going on with it. I am on facebook and updating my blog.
So, what has been happening in my life?
I really have no idea. I've been doing school and hanging out with people and trying to have a good time. My grades are alright, but not particularly good. I don't care about school as much as I should. I've tried to be there for people this term. I think I have failed in that so far. People are unhappy with me and I have been making the wrong decisions. I have let down my groups in several classes. I have spent very little time with my boyfriend, even knowing that that would destroy our relationship. I have ignored my health in the pursuit of something I can't define. I have started addictions to caffeine. I have been drinking more this term. I have been spending time with one very small group of friends. I have become absorbed in music rather than work. I got a tattoo.
You say you've got the cure, but I don't have a disease
You say you've got the answers, but I've made no inquiries
And you're failing, you're bailing
Good God, motherfucker, now I hear you're flailing
I see you flailing
So many songs are defining me right now. I don't think I ever wanted people I knew to read these posts. I guess I want to talk about things that I don't want people to see. Judgment sucks. Everyone judges and I don't want my friends to see me as I think I am.
